Just Stephen

Sin and such

October 17, 2013 – 10:23pm.

I have been pondering what to post tonight for a while, but I have decided to post on a topic that many are familiar with, sin.

It’s not an easy topic, but it’s something that every single person on this world suffers from, regardless if they’re saved or not or if they know they are sinning or not. The fact is, we’ll be sinning every day until we die and go to be with Christ or until Christ comes to Earth. It’s impossible for us to go even a day without sinning.

I know that I’ve dealt with various sin in my life for as long as I can remember it seems and have been constantly and consistently dragged down by the guilt and shame associated with it.

Everyone even deals with sin and even repetitive sin on a daily basis.

Sin in itself is repetitive.
The definition that my friend and your friend Google gives us of repetitive is: containing or characterized by repetition, especially when unnecessary or tiresome..

Sin is so tiresome and unnecessary. Yet we suffer with it on a daily basis due to Satan who posed as a snake in the Garden of Good and evil so many years ago managed to tempt Eve into eating and sharing the fruit of the tree.

The most difficult part for me personally has been believing that Christ will forgive us and makes us clean of our sins and believing that his blood and death on the cross is sufficient for that forgiveness. I definitely do not feel cleansed. The weight of my sin is definitely still there and plagues me on a daily basis. This is the work of Satan, I’m sure, the nefarious devil that he is.

I tend to like I believe most people do, try to categorize sin. I also have the bad habit of making myself think that mine is worse than everyone else’s, while sin is sin.

If there were two people that had never sinned*  and one steals a grape from the grocery store to see how sweet it is before they buy it and another pushes someone into the path of an incoming train, they’d both be sinners. Yes, their would be different worldly consequences for each of them, but they’d each be guilty of sinning before God, which would prevent them from inheriting the kingdom of God. (*Rom 3:23)

I’m not going to go into the various verses in the Bible that go into some sins being worse than others, my point being that sin is sin, regardless of the worldly severity and I know that myself, personally, tend to take it some sins far lighter than others when in the end, all they can lead to is death.

It is much easier for me to forgive others than it is to forgive myself, which is something that I really need to do. For if Christ’s blood has covered my sins and I’ve been forgiven, who am I to practically say to his face that it’s not enough by pitying myself in my own guilt and “inward shame” as the popular contemporary Christian song that I can’t remember the name of because my memory is awful calls it?

I suppose that this is one of the things that I could use prayer about, that I’ll come to better comprehend God’s grace and the significence of Christ’s sacrifice on the cross. I know that none of us will fully be able to comprehend it while on Earth.

I can’t wait for that day when believers will get to live on the New Heaven and Earth without having to have the tremendous burden that sin ties down on us every day, at least me, personally.

Without pain. Reunited with our family and friends that passed before us that were Christians. Being able to live life again, not some boring existence in the clouds playing a harp somewhere as many invision Heaven to be, but the life that was meant for us from the beginning, before sin even came into the picture. Real, eternal relationships, living in a real, physical Earth with truly infinite amounts to learn, with eternity to explore unending wonders, with perfected bodies, no more temptations, no more sin, no more doubting, no more sorrow and no more pain.

What a glorious day that will be.

(That last bit reminded me of Penn, for those who knew him)


“I’m” posting too many blog posts

October 17, 2013, 10:43AM.

I know that I am more than likely writing far too many posts on this blog. I will try to keep them limited as I don’t want to burn myself out. Every time I think about writing on this blog, I can easily see in my head how any post that I make might turn into into 15 pages.

I’ve been known to write extraordinarily long emails and posts in the past. Not on Facebook or on blogs, but to different individuals. There are a few out there that might be reading this that can attest to this fact. I can be extraordinarily long winded when I want to be, which is the total opposite to how I seem in real life, due to my unwanted and unneeded fear of judgement.

It is quite odd how I more free to write on here than I do to talk to someone in person. It has been that way for as long as I can remember. I’ve used writing as a form of clearing my head for many, many years. Sometimes I go off on tangents, occasionally I’ll stick to a topic solidly and not stray from it.

Is there anything in particular that anyone would like me to write about? Probably not, however I’d give it a shot. Except quantum mechanics. That’s just not my thing.

I have also noticed how there are entirely too many “I”‘s and “me”‘s in this blog post. Far too many. I’ll try to improve upon this.

Until my next post,



October 17, 2013, 9:28am

Well, feeling not well this morning due to that medicine I took last night. I’ll hopefully feel better by tonight. Enough about that…

This morning I am thinking about prayer and how I don’t pray anywhere even close to enough. It’s not just due to lack of time. If we are honest with ourselves, time isn’t a huge issue.

We could find time to pray even if we had to sacrifice doing some activity that we enjoy. For me though, it’s lack of motivation. It is also the fact that when I pray, or feels like it hits a concrete ceiling and bounces back down unheard, which I know isn’t the case. It’s Satan using one of his tactics from his bag of tricks that he uses every day to try and deceive us.

I’m going to try to pray more often. I challenge you, reader, to do the same. Hold me accountable if you want to.

This morning I’m specifically going to pray for Jesus to fill this spiritual void I’ve had. I’m also going to pray for a 19 year old teenager named Yves who had a heart attack yesterday. Also for those affected and trying to recover from powerful cyclone Phailin that hit northeast India last week.

I’ll probably post again later today.

Until then,


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What should this blog be?

October 17. 2013, 1:11 AM

I am debating what kind of posts I should make to this blog. I don’t want to make them too often as it would make the blog rather uninteresting.

I could simply combine them into a long daily posts, however it wouldn’t make sense depending on the topic. I’m guessing overall this blog will be rather random.

I anticipate that it will include what I’m learning from the word, spiritual struggles, general life updates and even pictures and reviews from restaurants I may eat at.

Expect random photos, thoughts, rants and ideas. I honestly haven’t the slightest what I will be posting on here. Expect the unexpected.


Like an angry cardinal that happens to be a geocache. You were not expecting that. I didn’t think so.

Have a great night folks. For the third time. Sorry about that. Insomnia. Gotta love it.