It is 12:40AM. I find myself lying in bed thinking, as I think clearest when I’m exhausted or when it is late at night.
Tonight, most of my thoughts have been pretty depressing, mostly about how it feels most of the time that I have accomplished very little in life.
I can’t say I’ve done near as many things as most people I know have done. I didn’t go to college and get a higher education. I’m single and I don’t see that changing any time soon.
Sure, there are things I’d like to do, but they aren’t realistic considering my health issues that limit how many days I can be away to just a couple. Most of them involve volunteering and travel. I hate being stuck in one place, feeling like I’m living the same days over and over again with just slight variations.
I need change, drastic change, but I’m not sure of what that is or what it’d look like. Also, like most people, I’m afraid of changes.
I fail to see the point behind this post, but I’m going to go ahead and post it as I’ve told myself several times that I can’t go back on posts or edit them. I’m posting this from my phone as usual.
I have a doctors appointment at 8:45am, so I better try and get some rest.