by juststephen250

Thursday, 6am

I am lying in bed hurting severely, pretty much agonizing pain. It feels like someone is plunging a knife into my lower stomach and is twisting it over and over again. I am used to the pain, otherwise I’d probably be screaming. It’s bad enough that I am very nauseated from it.

If my stomach would work, I’d probably feel a lot better, but I have no control over what it does. This could last hours until the afternoon or my medicine could miraculously work sooner and then I wouldn’t be hurting as much.

Oddly, when I am hurting like this is one of the times when I feel closest to God. I never blame him for my pain, as I know that it is not from him.

Very few people know truly how much I hurt as I don’t like to complain. I am just getting very, very tired of it though. I wish my stomach could work regularly then perhaps I could lead a more normal life. This is probably just a pipe dream though, as after all of these years I don’t see it happening.

I know this is a pretty depressing post, however for some reason I thought I’d post something, maybe as a way to get my mind off of the pain.

Needless to say, prayer is appreciated.

Just Stephen